Familar Pain

It has taken me close to a week to want to come back and write into my Blog.. here where it is I who can write or say what is in my heart or on my mind.. These days I find myself strictly and only writing into a journal I have been keeping for almost three years since I gave my life and my heart to my Savior and Lord Jesus Christ .. Its a journal I keep of my journey with first God and also with my beloved wife .. both when she is present and even more when she finds herself absent in my life and in the life of our children.. One verse comes to mind and has been in my mind for months and it is the main and sad reason why today I find myself alone again and until God wills it otherwise..

19 Better to dwell in the wilderness,
Than with a contentious and angry woman
Proverbs 21:19

I have found that it is very hard to serve God if our spouse is not and wants not to be a believer and a follower of Christ.. My wife for what ever reason does not want to trust my God or me for her future but decided to put her trust in herself and my feelings counted for nothing.. thank God for His peace and for His strength or I have no idea how I would have survived this pain twice..


Beloved Pain

Atom bombs annihilated and destroyed two cities
Nuclear weapons wipe out countries and nations
Guns kill people, with more bullets, generations
Knifes and sharp edges pierces through flesh

Planes that miss landing bring nobody home
Trains collide and many souls and lives are lost
Cars crash, hit man, child and broken are bones
Ships in rough seas are swallowed with its crew

Volcano's erupt burning up small and large towns
Tsunami's rise and thousands come up missing
Hurricanes have destructive winds and force
Tornado's twist and take residence and homes
Floods move mountains and every thing en-between

Words with no meaning hurt the ones that we love
But all these come short, in a violent wicked world
Where a woman can do, to break a man's heart
Thank God He's my Love, peace and healer of hearts..

written by Tbone / atw JAH
on 02.20.2008

God Bless .. Tbone out